Wednesday, June 19, 2019

Deutschland ΓΌber alles

I’m actually starting to feel pretty good about shutting this down.

NA is bullshit.

Most of you are two faced crack face fucks.

Especially you Bytor. Suck a dick.

This group and Stan’s team literally deserve each other. You’re assholes. They’re assholes.

Matchmaker, matchmaker.

See all you fucking junkies in hell.

The Lottery (A New Chatroom Owner is Nominated)

It’s Tessie,” Mr. Summers said, and his voice was hushed. “Show us her paper, Bill. “

Bill Hutchinson went over to his wife and forced the slip of paper out of her hand. It had a black spot on it, the black spot Mr. Summers had made the night before with the heavy pencil in the coal company office. Bill Hutchinson held it up, and there was a stir in the crowd.

“All right, folks. ” Mr. Summers said. “Let’s finish quickly. “

Although the villagers had forgotten the ritual and lost the original black box, they still remembered to use stones. The pile of stones the boys had made earlier was ready; there were stones on the ground with the blowing scraps of paper that had come out of the box. 

Delacroix selected a stone so large she had to pick it up with both hands and turned to Mrs. Dunbar. “Come on,” she said. “Hurry up. “

Mrs. Dunbar had small stones in both hands, and she said, gasping for breath. “I can’t run at all. You’ll have to go ahead and I’ll catch up with you. “

The children had stones already. And someone gave little Davy Hutchinson a few pebbles.

Tessie Hutchinson was in the center of a cleared space by now, and she held her hands out desperately as the villagers moved in on her. “It isn’t fair,” she said. A stone hit her on the side of the head. Old Man Warner was saying, “Come on, come on, everyone. ” Steve Adams was in the front of the crowd of villagers, with Mrs. Graves beside him.

“It isn’t fair, it isn’t right,” Mrs. Hutchinson screamed, and then they were upon her.

Next Prediction:

Give it a couple weeks and everyone is going to despise you all -- not because of what I said here -- but because you will treat people exactly the way I am saying that you will.

Laugh and call me crazy now motherfuckers, wait until you get banned or used as a punching bag.

Scores of you.

For no good goddamned reason.

For totally made up shit like imaginary viruses on Janis’s iPad that you’re accused of perpetrating.

For idling in the room and being accused of being a “spy.”

There’s a whole LITANY of arbitrary offenses you’re all about to be punished harshly for.

Go ahead and cry when you’re ripped from the arms of your newfound friends and support network.

The group will resent you bitterly for this.

They are going to troll you and attack you, just like they always have.

I'm sure you're going to blame Robert every time, without making the connection that people are more than likely fucking with you because ... well, because you're dishonest and arrogant shitheads.

You step on their toes, treat them rudely, and a newcomer can smell the bullshit wafting off of you from a thousand miles away.

I'm sorry to be the bearer of bad news, but in ALL likelihood quite a lot of them are probably smarter than you are. At this point the entire group has educated themselves on using VPNs and proxies and shit to sling shit and play the games that they play. They are even smarter than ever today dude.

Fuck yeah they sit there and trade tips on how to do this.

It's some people's primary source of entertainment!

Welcome to my world!

I always say, "addicts will find a way."

Time and time again they prove me right.

One of these guys was logging into hacked SMART METERS to troll my room and Derek figured out a workaround for the +D (deaf mode) restriction on private messages.

It ends up being work for me to figure out how to make the mousetrap just a little bit better but I usually do that shit with a bemused chuckle.

If you think Stan or Shiloh are going to detect that and fix that, dream on.

Just cast your line into the water and wait a few weeks.

You'll be setting your room invite only for a week like you always had to do back in the good old days when you dinosaurs ruled the earth.

Blame me all you want, but it's going to be because you treat someone poorly who turns out to be a bigger asshole than you and way smarter than you ... who will teach you a well deserved lesson.

Just like Bristol did.

I shouldn't have saved your room so that you could have learned from that lesson.

You deserved to fail.

The old room was fucking evil and toxic and it deserved to die.

And ... well I've already said plenty about how I've been treated for fixing it and keeping it going.

Anyway, now that it’s “Under Old Management”

I give it ... meh, 60 days until they shut the doors.

90 tops.

Maybe I’m a devious prick who knows they’ll read that and do it forever to prove me wrong while it eats them alive like a cancer. I’ve got a boner thinking about it.

Fuck what you think you know.

Your brains would explode trying to understand what I've implemented to respond to that.

My bots have automatically detected and banned tens of thousands of suspect connections.

You’ve gotten pretty spoiled by automation. I know you don’t know how many threats and attacks the bots shut down. That’s the whole point. But I see it happening in the logs.

I know what you’re up against. Pretty soon, so will you.

Enjoy the good old days when you sat there playing their mind games and manually banning the same twits over and over and over while they laugh at you.

It’s not even a fair fight, they’re playing mind games with the unarmed. :D

Johnny used to hit me with a thousand proxies an hour.

You're gonna get mauled by trolls and I won't help you anymore.

creekside is a fucking moron and Shiloh is a gaslighting lying stepper nazi

You know what they used to yell before my favorite speaker meeting?


<creekside1> I noticed that right away, the guy can edit to fit his perception well.

That's why I've posted four voicemails from Stan screaming his head off about me, accusing me of being high, and/or scheming to shut my site down.

Just for gaslightling, lying fucking moron steppers in denial like you. :)

You cultist assholes always bury your head in the sand and make excuses for unacceptable behavior. This is the exact criticisms that Monica Richardson and the Orange Papers make about lying gaslighting asshole fucking steppers. People get raped and killed attending meetings -- more often than not by sex predators and other offenders who are court mandated attendees -- and AA and NA don't do shit about it.  

Why would I expect anything but denial, gaslighting, and inaction over what you do to me? Why would I expect anything but you fucking stepper nazis to PILE ON and continue talking shit about how "crazy" I am,  and to totally not give a FUCK about a single word I've said here?

Oh, no, you just head on over to Stan's site and tell him how grateful you are for his service.

And the fucking BAND PLAYED ON, hey? 

You fucking sociopaths. 

This is precisely why NA is fucking bullshit.

LITTLE DICK MOTHERFUCKING BULLIES like Shiloh can terrorize people for years, blame their victims, hide under the cloak of "anonymity," and you all will just play along.


That's why the site's gone.

That's why I am making a public statement.

You will all be accountable for your shit this time. 

"Truth" is an incontrovertible defense to slander or defamation.

Deal with it. 


So fucking what if I'm nuts, that doesn't make what you're doing to me okay.

I guess if creekside is such a moron that he doesn't understand that I have verbatim logs of them making threats -- which are in no way edited -- and unedited voicemails of Stan's psycho ass screaming about me ... then oh well ... I can fix ignorance but I cannot fix stupidity.

<Shiloh> Oh chit ..did he abolish his room so he could harass this one?  

Oh yeah. Big time, buddy.

Also ...

I want everyone to know what violent and homophobic piece of shit John Harrison Wilson is.

(aka Shiloh)

<Shiloh> I have personal evidence of doxing me on his blog 

<Shiloh> Doxing is not only "Not Healthy" it's illegal...  

Boo hoo. You started it, you gaslighting lying piece of shit fucking stepper nazi.

How about you go turn yourself into the lockup first, you gaslighting lying fucking cunt ?

<+Straight8s> what is doxing btw?

<~Shiloh> publishing peoples personal information adress email etc for vengenance  

Oh yeah? Where's your e-mail address or telephone number or address on any of my blogs? 

Aren't you just a fucking professional victim?

<~Shiloh> Doxing didn't "go both ways" 

You're right. It only went one way. You did it to me. 

<~Shiloh>  No one here did that  

YOU, specifically did that. 



Psychological projection is a defense mechanism people subconsciously employ in order to cope with difficult feelings or emotions. Psychological projection involves projecting undesirable feelings or emotions onto someone else, rather than admitting to or dealing with the unwanted feelings.  

"Vengeance," huh?   

Shiloh has just totally (if not unconsciously) provided a motive for his own actions.

And you fucking sheep are "grateful" to Stan anyway. You all *DESERVE* Stan and Shiloh.
As far as posting Stan's telephone number? Yup. I sure did! Twice !!!!

In this post ... and in this one.

I'm not an intellectually dishonest gaslighting asshole like Shiloh.

As I said, boo hoo, what's the matter, is that a private telephone number you don't want given out on the internet? :(

Awwwww. What does that feel like? :(

That must be really stressful. :(

Tell me all about it. :(

Might I remind you one more time that Paul / trad12/ PaulUK (one of your moderators) emailed me, claiming "when susie was on FB with me she gave me your addresses because she was encouraging me to send some of my American friends to 'explain to you' "

"No one here did that." 

Yeah okay. Deny that, asshole.

And that right there is why I am doing this.

Because these gaslighting, lying, homophobic violent pieces of fucking shit did all of this and deny it and accuse ME of doing what THEY were doing. Straight up from Joseph Goebbel's playbook. Fucking NA Nazis.

On one hand they call me a liar, on the other hand Shiloh sits here jerking off to his typical fucking fantasy of having me arrested or locked up. “Doxing is ILLEGAL.”

Basically, just like I say that he is.

Aren’t you some hot shit LEGAL SCHOLAR?


They literally threaten to have me IMPRISONED for the behavior THEY ARE ENGAGING IN.

And all you fuckheads sit there and do is enable them and bury your head in the sand.

It's all okay as long as you have a working chatroom to sit there and laugh about me having AIDS in.

Yeah, fuck all of you stepper nazis. I'm not spending my time and money on you anymore.

Fuck how you feel about having your inventory taken. You've certainly spent all year taking mine.

Do my actions make a little more sense in light of this?

To the entire mod team on Stan's site: No, I really want you to run the NA chatroom.

I want you to know what it's like to be despised by the entire fucking group while you're doing it.

I think it will be a really good exercise in character development.

I think it is probably your only shot at evolving as humans.

Things are looking pretty bleak for you otherwise.

You are some very sad and screwed up souls. I hope you see some miracles that change your hearts.

I really want you to have this.

Even if your prognosis isn't all that good -- given that Shiloh and Betsy think that kicking and banning people is "more fun than the animal shooting game in the other room."

And that's why Bristol mopped the floor with your asses and brought your website to your knees.

You were assholes and you deserved it.

You taunted that little fucker and ridiculed him and banned him.

And ... you got your asses handed to you by him.

And then by me when I demoted and banned both of you for that exact same kind of behavior.

It's kind of bad for business when we have to endlessly deal with hackers and trolls who are determined to one up you and your precious goddamned fucking ban hammer.

You're so pissed off that your precious little ban hammer didn't do shit to stop either one of us that you've spent years engaged in your "vengeance" and retaliation against me.

Sit in that fucking chat and talk mad shit about your "true recovery," for fucks sake.

It will literally take a miracle for the light to seep into your reptilian brains.

Tuesday, June 18, 2019

Anyway, Here’s Wonderwall

I actually don’t care how the VPC reacts , or what they say, or what they do. Everything Stan says is lies or threats. I don’t fucking have the time of day for it anymore.

I've taken most of the posts about The Great NA Chatroom Wars out of my personal blog, and then deleted a shit ton of posts from this one that are pretty much ... repetitive or just shitposting. I think I can get my point across in two pages worth of posts.

The most tragic part about all of this I guess, is that if you take what Stan and I both have to say at face value, we're both claiming that this is a thankless shit job that neither of us want. So it's anyone's guess why we're clawing each other's eyes out to get to the top of the scratching post.

I deleted my own site, so that is clearly not my motive anymore.

As for the disposition of, it is a privately owned website and I've spent years dealing with multiple people trying to bully, extort, or otherwise manipulate their way into acquiring it. I've sunk thousands of dollars and just about as many hours into that thing and I cannot even begin to quantify the stress from the cunts over on Stan's website threatening and doxxing and hacking me or blabbing my HIV status or home addresses or personal telephone numbers or making phone calls all over the country accusing me of being on drugs or engaging in criminal activity.

I am not willing to give it away or sell it.

I don't want money. I want revenge.

I want them all utterly humiliated and discredited for years to come for what they did to me.

I can't put a price tag on telling the world what a couple of paranoid and cuckoo for Cocoa Puffs jackbooted fucking thugs Stan and Janis are and what they did to me.

The site and bots are still there and still work and may be repurposed for some non-NA related purpose in the future but I'm not interested in doing any further work under the banner of Narcotics Anonymous.

If carrying the "message of NA" is important to you, you should go do that over in Stan's room ... or create your own website. I am not going to help you.

I guess it’s real convenient for certain group members to say “welp, I been clean all day” or just not particularly give a shit that any of this is going on as long as chat is working.

With apologies to Julia Banks ...


I am doing this because Janis contacted me on Facebook offering to fly me out to Connecticut today.

Oh yeah, derp, that sounds like a really fucking smart idea, hur dur hurr.

None of you are going to do shit about them continually scheming to get even with me or have me beaten up or killed or put in a prison cell. So in order to punish them, I'm just going to fucking give them the precious POWER they covet so badly.

Hell to the fuck to the no I am not getting on a plane and meeting anyone from Stan’s website or even my own website or NA in general after all of this. Not now, not ever!

I just forwarded the DNS records for [my old chatroom] over to the VPC at  [stan's website]  effective immediately.

Why, you ask?

I hate Stan and Janis so much that I want them to suffer as much as I do and become as bitter as I have. I want them to hate NA as much as I do. I want their lives to be a quiet hell, utterly consumed with slavery to "online NA." I want them to battle trolls all fucking day and night long. I want them to be a SLAVE to controversy and resentment and dissent.

I want them to sit there listening to everyone cry about who doesn't like whom.

I want them to answer to group members who are furious about what they've done to me.

I want Stan to be harassed all night and day to fix things or add things or customize things.

I want Stan to be a little bot bitch and ban minder. He's going to crack like a fucking egg, lol !!!!

I want their names inside of everybody mouths.

I want people to exchange their phone numbers, addresses, and social media links instead of mine.

It’ll be like Christmas for azzuma and johnny once they realize they can get back in and fuck with you all god damned day and night. I might even help them fuck with you!

I want you to reconsider a walk in the park or visiting a friend or going about your day to day lives (if you even have one) because you have to go engage in this battle instead. 

You've both wanted this so fucking bad for the last fifteen years ...

You want it so badly you'd threaten to beat up or kill a faggot with AIDS in order to get it ...

Just... uh... pretend you won Stan and Janis.

Pretend the cops came and hauled me off in a paddywaggon for Crimes against NA.

Pretend I overdosed and died, like Stan and John gloated about.

Pretend the AIDS got me like Phil and Scooter and Shiloh and Stan have all laughed about.

Pretend I stepped off some plane in Connecticut and you beat my ass or killed me.

Hop up on the throne of my Kingdom of Shit and enjoy the view from the top of the scratching post!

Apologies in advance to any stepper dickheads polluting my timeline, inbox, text messages, or social media feeds. I’ll have to block you for your efforts to manipulate or control me whenever I get back home.

Don't Forget to Bring a Towel! (I Have No Idea What's Going On - Towelie Remix)

I mixed Stan's first two voicemails into a track to make them a little more interesting/fun.

As I said in that post, "Ooooo! The [stan's website]  Stasi is building a dossier on me!"

Sorry buddy... you're not "getting that site and my antics taken offline."

I'm actually going to dial the antics up to about 1000 and you're not doing shit about it, bitch. :)

MY Number One Fan Stan - "Short Attention Span" Radio Edit (3 minutes):

MY Number One Fan Stan - "I am So High Right Now" Extended Version (9 minutes):

We got them pretty good a couple of times.

Full Disclosure: Yeah we fucked with them too.

Here's what I did.

When Betsy and Billy launched***.org , I bought and posted flyers for it all over San Francisco since she was foaming at the mouth about perverts all the time. It took her about five days to melt down and delete her website.

Visitors to were dropped into Betsy's chatroom via Mibbit and they just kept coming ... LOL guuuuurrrrrrrrrrrllllll she was so mad.

The second time around I bought and dropped it into her chatroom since she hates Jesus and the Bible so much.

The room was raided by people sharing videos of the Christchurch Mosque Shooting the night it happened. The thing is, everyone was speaking Portuguese so I am not sure what exactly was going on. I hope I didn't like accidentally turn the VPC into a terror camp or something. :(

Monday, June 17, 2019

"Look at your recovery shine."

Update: I'm just going to let you in on a secret: It was Jessie, and I got blamed for everything. Stan and Shiloh were celebrating my apparent imminent death from drugs or AIDS and literally ready to beat my motherfucking ass because Jessie was mouthing off to them.  I started getting screen shots texted to me and I went in to record this.

The statement I made to Robin_Y and censored in this post was "that bitch tryna get me killed." 

I’m not expecting Jessie to defend me by acknowledging this, though TBH she’s a coward if she doesn’t.

Robin_Y can confirm her IP address matched the troll... she's the one one I shared that information with.

Do you guys understand that I can't / won't work under conditions where Stan or Shiloh or anybody else might want me dead just because one of you fuckheads goes in and trolls them and they flip out and think I did it? 

They threatened to send shit to my mother's house, they threatened to take away my "so called business" and on and on and on and on ... and it was fucking JESSIE.

Yes? I am beyond pissed off?

And Stans like “uhhhh, I don’t know what’s going on, robs just being totally unreasonable.”

What the fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I’m being unreasonable ?!!?!!??!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!?!??????



The moderator team on  [stan's website]  made some violent homophobic threats towards me.

The reason they wanted to "beat my ass" and mocked me for having aids was for someone trolling their site. I got a text message telling me I might want to go and look at what was happening.

I was "woody" in this transcript.

The other one, I determined who she was by comparing her IP address to the address in my logs. 

Read between the lines: They thought she was me.

That's why she ridiculed them for not being smart.

She's the one who said look at your recovery shine, fool.

And the stuff with CanadianFarmer was directed at Susie.

"How many others has she harmed?"

Want to take a guess who that was? Who hates Susie more than war in this world?

I could take these people's inventories endlessly -- and believe me, I have.

These assholes have threatened to beat me, sue me, and/or have me put in prison over other parties trolling their website and/or their butthurt over their chatroom bans.

I just want you to know who they really are.

Here's an excerpt of the stuff they had to say about me:

<Shiloh>  If it was real life we could beat their ass
<Shiloh> and would
*** yoursiteisdone was kicked by Shiloh (Shiloh)
<Shiloh> He's a scrawny diseased little pervert with a short time to live
<Shiloh> Come on Stan...the LAST thing he wants to be is a "Man"
<Shiloh> Unless they can cure aids and other stds his days are numbered anyway. If the drugs don't kill him the disease will
 <Shiloh> He's so fragile now he can hardly type
<Shiloh> He's crap his pants if hhe met either of us on the street
<Shiloh> he can hardly walk
<Shiloh> They say even the other perverts think he's unsafe
<Shiloh> He's scared to stay in one place very long for fear  of real people
<Shiloh> I think ..." among his fellow perverts" he's shunned
<Shiloh>  they want to live
<Shiloh> for a while

<Stan> og geezus
<Stan> this is screwed up
<Stan> this fucker never quits
<Stan> he is a pussy doesnt even have the balls to call me even when I said to block his phone number..
<Stan> wait
<Stan> dont kick
+++ Stan has given op to UnderDawg
<Stan> Robert have the fucking balls to call me to peace of slime
<Stan> you are slime
<Stan> fucking pussy
<Stan> recovery my ass you fuck peave of shit
<Stan> come on give me what ever you have
<Stan> I am not like the others and scared of you
<Shiloh> Come on Stan...the LAST thing he wants to be is a "Man"
<Stan> peace of shit
<Stan> fuck you
<Stan> smart??
<Stan> your a dumbass
<Stan> hey havent you noticed I havent really been trying anything on your site? Yeah keep this up and you will find yourself in a court. Remember I have all your info now. I will send everything to your mothers house..
<Stan> and also your so called biz name.. Kiss that goodbye

Here's a paste of the full transcript:

<UnderDawg> \\/\//elcome to the NA Chat Main Hall SexFiend477!
+++ UnderDawg has given voice to SexFiend477
<thisisfun> false advertising bitches, down right lies. You all need Jesus
<UnderDawg> \\/\//elcome to the NA Chat Main Hall SexFiend656!
+++ UnderDawg has given voice to SexFiend656
<UnderDawg> \\/\//elcome to the NA Chat Main Hall SexFiend815!
+++ UnderDawg has given voice to SexFiend815
<UnderDawg> \\/\//elcome to the NA Chat Main Hall SexFiend285!
+++ UnderDawg has given voice to SexFiend285
<UnderDawg> \\/\//elcome to the NA Chat Main Hall SexFiend556!
+++ UnderDawg has given voice to SexFiend556
<UnderDawg> \\/\//elcome to the NA Chat Main Hall SexFiend780!
+++ UnderDawg has given voice to SexFiend780
<UnderDawg> \\/\//elcome to the NA Chat Main Hall SexFiend613!
+++ UnderDawg has given voice to SexFiend613
<UnderDawg> \\/\//elcome to the NA Chat Main Hall SexFiend173!
+++ UnderDawg has given voice to SexFiend173
<UnderDawg> \\/\//elcome to the NA Chat Main Hall SexFiend639!
+++ UnderDawg has given voice to SexFiend639
<UnderDawg> \\/\//elcome to the NA Chat Main Hall SexFiend880!
+++ UnderDawg has given voice to SexFiend880
<UnderDawg> \\/\//elcome to the NA Chat Main Hall SexFiend039!
+++ UnderDawg has given voice to SexFiend039
<UnderDawg> \\/\//elcome to the NA Chat Main Hall SexFiend041!
+++ UnderDawg has given voice to SexFiend041
<UnderDawg> \\/\//elcome to the NA Chat Main Hall SexFiend601!
+++ UnderDawg has given voice to SexFiend601
<UnderDawg> \\/\//elcome to the NA Chat Main Hall Hyjinx!
+++ UnderDawg has given voice to Hyjinx
<UnderDawg> \\/\//elcome to the NA Chat Main Hall SexFiend861!
+++ UnderDawg has given voice to SexFiend861
<UnderDawg> \\/\//elcome to the NA Chat Main Hall SexFiend494!
+++ UnderDawg has given voice to SexFiend494
<UnderDawg> \\/\//elcome to the NA Chat Main Hall SexFiend154!
+++ UnderDawg has given voice to SexFiend154
<UnderDawg> \\/\//elcome to the NA Chat Main Hall Nae!
+++ UnderDawg has given voice to Nae
<Nae> Thank you good to be back
<UnderDawg> \\/\//elcome to the NA Chat Main Hall SexFiend619!
+++ UnderDawg has given voice to SexFiend619
<UnderDawg> \\/\//elcome to the NA Chat Main Hall SexFiend902!
+++ UnderDawg has given voice to SexFiend902
<UnderDawg> \\/\//elcome to the NA Chat Main Hall SexFiend038!
+++ UnderDawg has given voice to SexFiend038
<UnderDawg> \\/\//elcome to the NA Chat Main Hall yallsuck!
+++ UnderDawg has given voice to yallsuck
--- Stan has banned *!*sex*@*
<UnderDawg> \\/\//elcome to the NA Chat Main Hall SexFiend678!
+++ UnderDawg has given voice to SexFiend678
<UnderDawg> \\/\//elcome to the NA Chat Main Hall S3xFiend829!
+++ UnderDawg has given voice to S3xFiend829
<yallsuck> haha
<Stan> fuck you
<Stan> asshole
<UnderDawg> \\/\//elcome to the NA Chat Main Hall S3xFiend986!
+++ UnderDawg has given voice to S3xFiend986
+++ Stan set the channel to mode +i
<yallsuck> how many tits does susie have
*** yallsuck was kicked by Stan (Stan)
<Shiloh> Hi Stan
+++ Stan has taken voice from Freedom
+++ Stan has taken voice from nun
+++ Stan has taken voice from woody
+++ Stan set the channel to mode -i
<UnderDawg> \\/\//elcome to the NA Chat Main Hall S3xFiend972!
+++ UnderDawg has given voice to S3xFiend972
<UnderDawg> \\/\//elcome to the NA Chat Main Hall S3xFiend844!
+++ UnderDawg has given voice to S3xFiend844
<UnderDawg> \\/\//elcome to the NA Chat Main Hall S3xFiend116!
+++ UnderDawg has given voice to S3xFiend116
+++ Stan has taken op from UnderDawg
+++ Stan has given voice to CanadianFarmer
<Stan> Hi CF
<CanadianFarmer> she said she felt an instant connection to me, how many others has she harmed
<CanadianFarmer> truthfully
<Shiloh> ?
<Stan> og geezus
<Shiloh> Who?
<Shiloh> Nancy Pelosi?
*** softylikewoody was kicked by Shiloh (Shiloh)
<Stan> this is screwed up
<Shiloh> Yep
<Stan> this fucker never quits
*** spongelikeshiloh was kicked by Shiloh (Shiloh)
<Shiloh> We do what we can
<Shiloh>  If it was real life we could beat their ass
<Shiloh> and would
*** yoursiteisdone was kicked by Shiloh (Shiloh)
<Stan> he is a pussy doesnt even have the balls to call me even when I said to block his phone number..
<Shiloh> He's a scrawny diseased little pervert with a short time to live
<woody> im not even doing this, im robert. i dont know who THAT is.
<Stan> wait
Cannot send to channel: #NAChatHall
<Stan> dont kick
+++ Stan has given op to UnderDawg
<UnderDawg> \\/\//elcome to the NA Chat Main Hall cantkeepmeout!
+++ UnderDawg has given voice to cantkeepmeout
<UnderDawg> \\/\//elcome to the NA Chat Main Hall S3xFiend166!
+++ UnderDawg has given voice to S3xFiend166
<UnderDawg> \\/\//elcome to the NA Chat Main Hall S3xFiend115!
+++ UnderDawg has given voice to S3xFiend115
<cantkeepmeout> fried cat for lunch
<Stan> Robert have the fucking balls to call me to peace of slime
<cantkeepmeout> what did he call you
<Stan> you are slime
<cantkeepmeout> i call betsy cat hair
<Stan> fucking pussy
<cantkeepmeout> wow look at your recovery shine
<cantkeepmeout> fool
<Stan> recovery my ass you fuck peave of shit
<Stan> come on give me what ever you have
<cantkeepmeout> lol simmer down clown
<Stan> I am not like the others and scared of you
<Shiloh> Come on Stan...the LAST thing he wants to be is a "Man"
<cantkeepmeout> haha or as smart i see
<Stan> peace of shit
<Stan> fuck you
<Stan> smart??
<cantkeepmeout> lmmfao
<Stan> your a dumbass
<cantkeepmeout> stfushiloh dont you have dishes to do
<cantkeepmeout> another generation to ruin
<Shiloh> Unless they can cure aids and other stds his days are numbered anyway. If the drugs don't kill him the disease will
<cantkeepmeout> get busy
<cantkeepmeout> Youve got aids
 <Shiloh> He's so fragile now he can hardly type
<cantkeepmeout> but you wont kill me
<cantkeepmeout> you mean can't
<Shiloh> He's crap his pants if hhe met either of us on the street
<cantkeepmeout> get skooled
<Stan> hey havent you noticed I havent really been trying anything on your site? Yeah keep this up and you will find yourself in a court. Remember I have all your info now. I will send everything to your mothers house..
<Shiloh> he can hardly walk
<cantkeepmeout> hahaha go ahead fred
<Shiloh> They say even the other perverts think he's unsafe
<Stan> and also your so called biz name.. Kiss that goodbye
<cantkeepmeout> you should know shiloh, guess what they say about you
<cantkeepmeout> hahaha
<cantkeepmeout> hahaha
<cantkeepmeout> pansies
<Stan> yeah look whos talking
<cantkeepmeout> wheres slutty
<UnderDawg> \\/\//elcome to the NA Chat Main Hall woody_!
+++ UnderDawg has given voice to woody_
<Shiloh> He's scared to stay in one place very long for fear  of real people
<woody_> y'all. im robert. ive been in here as woody this whole time. thats not me.
<woody_> i recorded everything
<woody_> and im blogging it
<cantkeepmeout> shiloh stfu you aren't real, only real small
<woody_> my cell carrier is sprint
<woody_> thats at&t
<woody_> thats not me
<Shiloh> I think ..." among his fellow perverts" he's shunned
<Shiloh>  they want to live
<Shiloh> for a while
<woody_> you homophobic
*** cantkeepmeout was kicked by Stan (Stan)
*** woody_ was kicked by Stan (Stan)
*** woody was kicked by Stan (Stan)
!!! You have been kicked from #NAChatHall

"I don't know what crawled up robs ass!"

Well, here's the latest installment in Voicemails from Stan. Two of them!

"Uhhhhhhhhhhhhh, this is not how recovery is supposed to work."



What was your fucking plan for when I was in prison, Einstein?

Uh, cause , you know, you'd kinda ... be in this situation that you're in right now if that happened?




I don't even have an agenda or a point here anymore. At this point I'm just blowing off steam telling you fascist fucking twelve step fucking nazi pieces of shit to go fuck yourselves.

You wanted to harass or intimidate me or fuck up my program so bad I said "fuck NA and fuck you" ?

Congratulations, you won asshole.


My prediction:

About a month from now they’ll be like “Robert who?”

Sounds good to me. πŸ‘πŸ»

If you have complaints about  [stan's website]  direct them to Stan. Want his cell phone number? It’s (609) 287-xxxx 😭

Fuckers never cleared it with me before giving out my phone number or my address.

Is it a private number or something that you don’t want given out? :(

Aw that sucks. :(

Hey I have an idea that’s never been played out to death before!!!!

You could... always.... start a new website and organize a mutiny and attack each other and get everyone to join you. Like we do every year. 😭

It’s the wheel in the sky! 😭

NA sucks. Get a fucking hobby, junkies.

I think that I would like to take up gardening.

Oh and fuck NA World Services, too.

They’re probably busy figuring out how to shove an unwanted Seventh Edition down your throats so everyone can get a new Mercedes. 😭

The whole Board of Trustees can suck my AIDS infected dick.

Steve can, too.

"A safe place to chat about recovery and make friends."

Wew, Vlad, it's only been a few hours and everyone's ranting about Jesus and homos over there.

So, uh, these are the people I've wasted a quarter of my life and what little discretionary income I have on.

You're goddamn right I'm going to sit here and do nothing about this.

Just like you. :)

Sunday, June 16, 2019

Is she crazy or is she an alcoholic?

I attended enough of those classes to know that like, um... statistically... about 60% of us are probably both. 

More like 80%+ with an exceptionally poor prognosis if you add a personality disorder to the mix.

They wish we’d all go away or overdose or die so they don’t have to admit that their junk pseudoscience and their even worse pseudospirituality is generally unhelpful horseshit when it comes to treating a pseudodisorder.

You know what “success” looks like in AA? Committing suicide with twenty years sober.

You see that all the time.

There should be more stories about that in the back of the Big Book and the Basic Text.

I was raised a Jehovah’s Witness so I have already had plenty of exposure to glassy eyed brainwashed fuckwits jibber jabbing about “The Truth,” and y’all are no different.

Lovebomb the newcomer and pile their arms up with tracts and books, millions of dollars in literature sales and six figure salaries are at stake here.

Shun or threaten anyone who doesn’t conform to your behavioral expectations.

Oldest cult tactic in the book.

At least no one’s dying if the Witnesses shun them.

Speaking of the prevalence of serious and unmitigated personality disorders in the rooms of Narcotics Anonymous:

Okay, sure. Those recorded voicemail messages from Stan that came from (609) 287-xxx totally weren’t him, got it. πŸ‘πŸ»

He seems to have texted my number enough for someone who doesn't have it:

Oh, would you look at that ... another lie. Stan said he didn't have a copy of the JFT_BOT, but elsewhere in my blog, Strawberry aka Bill said he was given a copy of it to examine for exploits.

And I can confirm that because he found one.

Stan and Shiloh sure as fuck seemed to have my phone number when they repeatedly posted it:

Your other mods (i.e. Paul) sure seem to like bragging about having my addresses and claiming that you've had discussions about sending people to "explain to me" whenever it suits you to do so, i.e. you want to threaten or intimidate or dox me.

If your owner leaves voicemails like that about me, "Stan doesn't even have your phone number. It's not him." But if you want me scared, you assholes suddenly know every motherfucking address and phone number I've had for the last twelve years:

Fuck Paul.

First of all the guy's higher than a fucking Georgia pine on crack right now.

Second of all, he admits that he was having discussions like this and yet he wonders why I might email him and say "Get rekt, asshole. No one's confirming your registration" when he tried to create an account on my website.

Susie already sent me screen captures of their Facebook conversation leading up to where she blocked him. He was as fucked up as a lab rat and coming on to her, now he's disparaging her the way he is.

Gaslighting, lying, fascist twelve steppers can all go to Hell.

Friday, June 14, 2019

"I own the name with the government."

Janis Marano is under the belief that since she incorporated "NACHAT LLC" in the State of New Jersey, she now "owns the name with the government" and "can sue" us and close the other room.

I don't even know where to begin with this evil psychotic hag and her sundry fucking delusions and false beliefs -- dear god, that would be a full time job -- but I will take a stab at this particular one.


Just to prove a point, I've obtained the following determination from the US Patent Office.

Go fuck yourself for a dime bag, "VaJanis" :

A little story about change from within

The aggressive hard sell at 4:00am does not work with people on the Internet and you're going to run them right out the door.

*** sucia has joined the room.
<sucia> hi
<mc> sucia ?? Oof
<Mike112780> πŸ‘‹ sucia  welcome
<mc> why that name ??
<sucia> cause I'm not clean
<mc> i know
<mc> but like 😭😭😭
<sucia> lol
<mc> i shouldve thought of that πŸ˜ͺ
<Mike112780> sucia: do you want to stop using?
<sucia> im here, right ?
<mc> oof
<mc> heyy calm down there πŸ‘‡
<Mike112780> We get all kinds offense intended
<sucia> I can only imagine :)
<Mike112780> sucia: have you ever attended NA meetings?
<sucia> just like a real meeting then huh
<sucia> some, we have one on Wednesdays I have not been in a long time
<sucia> and that feels like a very long ways away
<Mike112780> As our literature says: those who attend our meetings regularly stay clean.
<sucia> its 4:00 in the morning I just want to chat instead of getting high
<sucia> I didn't really want my ass jumped all over
<sucia> sorry if that seems rude
<Mike112780> that's a start!
<Mike112780> sucia realize the primary purpose of this chatroom is to carry the NA message of recovery. So yeah attending meetings and chit will be mentioned, often.
<sucia> I have been here several times, it wasn't this aggressive and I don't appreciate that shit
<sucia> I regret coming in now
<Mike112780> can't talk to the drugs....
<•Robert> i was sucia, just testing the waters
<•Robert> i guess you cant talk to the condescension

Friday, June 7, 2019

Orange was Right

2:25 PM <JFT_BOT> June 07, 2019
2:25 PM <JFT_BOT> Someone who believes in me
2:25 PM <JFT_BOT> Page 165
2:25 PM <JFT_BOT> Just for today, I will have faith in someone in NA who believes in me and wants to help me in my recovery.
2:25 PM <JFT_BOT> Basic Text, p. 100
2:25 PM <JFT_BOT> Not all of us arrive in NA and automatically stay clean. But if we keep coming back, we find in Narcotics Anonymous the support we need for our recovery. Staying clean is easier when we have someone who believes in us even when we don't believe in ourselves.Even the most frequent relapser in NA usually has one staunch supporter who is always there,
2:25 PM <JFT_BOT>  no matter what. It is imperative that we find that one person or group of people who believes in us. When we ask them if we will ever get clean, they will always replay, Yes, you can and you will. Just keep coming back!We all need someone who believes in us, especially when we can't believe in ourselves. When we relapse, we undermine our already s
2:25 PM <JFT_BOT> hattered self-confidence, sometimes so badly that we begin to feel utterly hopeless. At such times, we need the support of our loyal NA friends. They tell us that this can be our last relapse. They know from experience that if we keep coming to meetings,we will eventually get clean and stay clean.It's hard for many of us to believe in ourselves. Bu
2:25 PM <JFT_BOT> t when someone loves us unconditionally, offering support no matter how many times we've relapsed, recovery in NA becomes a little more real for us.
2:25 PM <JFT_BOT> Just for Today: I will find someone who believes in me. I will believe in them.

2:27 PM <robert> And what if none of them believe in you or want to help you
2:28 PM <robert> What if they’re like don’t sponsor him
2:28 PM <robert> Stay away he’s crazy

2:28 PM <CleanBill> what if frogs could fly??
2:28 PM <CleanBill> if frogs could fly they be screwing all the birds

2:29 PM <robert> Must be nice being dumber than a cocker spaniel

2:29 PM <robert>

2:30 PM <Susie> hmm are you calling us retards ?

2:30 PM <robert> Just cleanbill

Wednesday, June 5, 2019

Interactive Flowchart: Is Rob "hacking" Stan's website?

9:55 PM <Susie> oh gosh that pissed him off I remember him saying there is a GD picture of me with dick in my mouth he has gone too far now

Tuesday, June 4, 2019

"Dear Fourth Step ..."

🚨 Breaking News: I’m a hacker and an internet troll who does a lot of drugs! πŸš¨

Shucks, have you been talking to my mom or something?

TL;DL some random psycho dickhead 12 step nazi named Stan Schumacher (yes, the same one making violent and homophobic threats towards me in this post) screaming about what a psycho dickhead I am.

"The more information I gather on Rob..."

Ooooo, I guess the [stan's website] Stasi is building a dossier on me. 

How exciting, it's just like living in East Germany in 1987!!!!

Message 1:

Message 2, a couple of days later:

[Tags: Speaker Jam Fails Compilation, Volume Three]

I’m just going to leave this here:

Monday, June 3, 2019

[A note from my aunt]

"You are ALWAYS welcome in Church. It is a hospital for sinners and NOT a museum for the saints. We are all flawed in some ways. Heavenly Father loves you every bit as much as He loves anyone else. You are loved by Him. You are loved by me. Your "flaws" have made you who you are. We all have them."

A hospital for sinners and NOT a museum for the saints, damn.

I wish some people in "the program" had the ability to take that one to heart and apply it.

Instead of "Omg, she's flawed, shun her!"

I like these Mormon folks, they're based as heck and some of the nicest people I've ever met.

They have what they like to refer to as "friends."

You should be so lucky as to call such people friends.

I've heard other assessments but I am only able to speak to my own experience.

There are a lot of unlikely places that I tread and find myself accepted and welcomed.

And they're always the places that everyone seems to assure me that I couldn't possibly ever be.

Meanwhile, the ones where I’m told I will be ...

Ya ever get sick of spending your whole life being lied to ?

Honestly, drinking NA coffee is sufficient punishment.

I stopped into my old home group to pour myself a coffee and leave without putting a dollar in the basket.

I dodged a fake “oh, it’s good to see you” or two and got the most rancid look from the greeter as I drove off.



Sunday, June 2, 2019


I drove past the town square and got a whiff of some freshly cut grass and flowers.

This is the spot.

I parked and went exploring for awhile.

I took a big whiff of a pine tree and wondered how long it's been since I had smelled a pine tree.

I watched a caterpillar crawl through the flowers.

I watched tiny little sweat bees frolic in the pollen.

If you're "worried about the bees," plant some flowers for them. 

Better yet, plant a lot of flowers for them.

A hummingbird appeared out of nowhere.

Children screeched and laughed and played in the park.

An older couple sat down in the gazebo with a picnic lunch and talked to me for a few minutes.

Everyone was so relaxed.

Everything felt so ... safe.

I loved the sensation of the earth below me, this whole place has an energy where I unknot, unwind, and feel some kind of peace flowing through me.

This place loves me and I love it back.

It's the same place where I had this dream.

I took a guided tour of the local Mormon tabernacle.

I have a few Mormon relatives who are very earnest about their love for God and their family. They’re lovely and accept me exactly the way I am.

And I love them and accept them the way they are too.

I have other relatives who cry and moan about them and their beliefs or politics. I’m always like, what? They’re amazing. They’re good people. They are so kind to me.

They love the snot out of you, too.

Today I felt inspired to learn more about their faith and culture.

I really liked how our guide described times when the local Catholics held mass in their tabernacle.

She said we all come from the same God.

God is God.

And sometimes we’re like children with the same father, fighting with one another.

I agreed: "it's like fighting because one calls him father and the other one calls him daddy."

Having mentioned that I wanted to understand Heather and Debra and their faith a little bit better, this Sister from the mission who was providing our tour told told me she had something for me:

Now I understand them a little bit better which is what I set about wanting to accomplish today.

I even agree with much of it, though I have no opinion on the Book of Mormon as I have never encountered this text.

Should the earth be restored to its paradisiacal glory, may it be just like this town square.

For as badly as our planet is being screwed up, these guys washed the acid out of the soil here and gave it the nutrients it needed. They made life thrive and flourish here. They are impressive stewards of the planet, their communities, and their land.

I wanted to go to the service today but I was embarrassed to go all tattooed up in blue jeans and a T-shirt, I didn't pack any nice clothes for this trip.

The sky was bright blue.

This city was so quiet.

I thought, "this is pretty much it for America."

When they ruin this place, too, it's all over.

I drove out of town and into the desert.

I tried to climb a rock formation but the ole' ticker let me know it wasn't up for this today.

But I can make it another 5 feet and take in the scenery from the next plateau.

I thought about the people I met today: Simple, earnest, kind folk who unashamedly love God and Jesus and try to love others to the best of their ability.

While I am perplexed at why my family has such a problem with this, I also remember when I used to sneer at that.

I thought about how crazy and nasty certain people in the rooms of AA and NA have been.

How some of them realllllly wanted to make sure I would never have a place in that community.

I thought about how vindictive and horrible certain gays have been to encounter.

And how some of them have reaaaaaalllly wanted to make sure I would never have a place in that community, either.

I've pretty much wasted most of my life looking for a place in either of those realms.

I've tried to espouse having a welcoming and encouraging attitude towards whoever I could. I wish I'd have instead spent it surrounded by other people who shared these values.

Such as you might find if you had participated in a decent church instead of a 12-step program.

However I wouldn't have realized how important these things were if they had not been denied me.

I asked God:

Hey if I ever come back here, can I just sit this next one out and relax and chill and smell the fresh cut grass and the flowers in some place like this? And just sit here unafraid and at peace with everything?

But then would I be so moved by this? 

Would I be soaring inside with appreciation for these small things?

Would I even notice them at all?

I guess I was meant to know the darkness underneath all of this and contemplate things like community and identity.

One of the rocks on the ground in front of me stood out and caught my attention.

I was in the shade and it looked like a black rock sitting in the middle of all of the red rocks.

I normally believe in not taking anything from nature or leaving anything in nature.

But I took this one.

When I got back to my car I set it on the dashboard.

Once I was in the sunlight I could see that it was actually a grimy, dirty, stained red rock -- exactly like the others underneath all of that.

I took this back to feeling unworthy of attending a service today because I don't have nice clothes.

Or because I have all of these stupid tattoos that I now regret.

I took this back to a "certain individual" attacking me on the basis of allegedly "using" or being otherwise flawed in whatever ways he cares to either invent or exxagerate, desperately trying to convince other people that I am unworthy or don't deserve a place in a community that I pretty much rescued/revived and then played a pivotal role in shaping and fostering the current tone of. Some would say that I don't belong here because I am a grubby and flawed rock that stands out from the others.

I felt like I was like this small chunk of rock:

Stained and dirty and looking out of place.

Like it didn't belong here or it wasn't even made of the same stuff.

Except that it totally was made of the same stuff and it totally does belong here.

Some day I will be scrubbed clean of my hurt and alienation and sin and everything I carry with me.

Some day I will forget this notion that I am not like the other rocks surrounding me.

Thursday, May 30, 2019

That stupid book you’re always blathering about says something about “principles before personalities.” πŸ€”

I know I’m a terrible fucking human being but I’m the one they’ve asked to deal with internal and external forces seeking to destroy the group such as yourselves.


Get fucked you moron you don’t deserve special attention and I don’t have time for you or your empty irrelevant website.

As Stan so eloquently put it, I was up against a culture of harassment threats and intimidation. An EXTREMELY divided group at war with itself. Sexual and financial predators. Power struggles and more. Stop acting like I’m the REASON for any of that, instead of giving me credit for mitigating that, keeping shit stable, and responding to external and internal forces — such as yourselves — who have been HELL BENT on destroying us or obstructing my efforts to clean house rather than being a part of the solution.

He closed his site in exasperation, pronouncing it hopeless, just like I had. He throws that in my face ENDLESSLY and always always always fails to mention he gave up and closed the doors too. “Well if Robert hadn’t deleted the site-“ man, fuck you. We BOTH deleted our respective websites. BOTH of us deleted BOTH of our websites. We BOTH re-opened our respective websites. What is your fucking point with bringing that up over and over again to justify the rest of your nonsense Stan?

“Because of Robert closing his site, which has nothing to do with my site, I was FORCED TO-“

You what, bitch?


I admire your effort, when no one else including me wanted to step up.

But I didn’t make you do shit.

I never logged into your website.

I didn’t force you to close it down.

I didn’t force you to re-open it.

I don’t fucking care what you do.

Those were all πŸ‘πŸ»YOUR. πŸ‘πŸ»POORLY. πŸ‘πŸ»EXECUTED. πŸ‘πŸ»DECISIONS. πŸ‘πŸ»

You made some other poor decisions: Like being a jackbooted fascist fuck and banning people left and right and treating them so badly they begged me to turn the old site back on.

I’m a sucker for people being treated unjustly.

I *wish* that your site had succeeded.

I *wish* you weren’t such a prick that they begged for the old site and team.

I only agreed to turn the old site back after you announced that you were closing your chat.

After you publicly gave up and said you were closing it down due to threats harassment and newcomers going out and using.

You shut your site down.

Then and only then did I bring mine back up.

I’ve *begged* for my fucking life back more than once.

I *hate* my fucking service position.

Take responsibility for the decisions you took it upon yourself to make, you miserable fucking coward.

My decision was to nope the fuck out and delete the website after three years.

My life. My decision. Fuck what you think about it.

I don’t owe you a lifetime of servitude.

You have no right to demand I continue working in the face of how fucking terribly I am treated.

Fuck you Stan, I don’t owe you or ANYBODY that.

And if I want to walk away it’s my god damn fucking prerogative.

Stop bitching about it.

You chose to try to create another site and tackle its problems.


I didn’t make you do that.

You failed, too.

You made the same decision to close your site after two months.

And when I said I’d give this one more try, and brought my site back online, you RACED to turn yours back on too and make it a competition.

I didn’t fucking make you do that.

I have no fucking opinion about you creating that trash fire or deleting it or opening it again.

That’s your site.

I concern myself with my site.

Now get the fuck over it already you idiot.

I stepped in one more time to tackle what he admitted he couldn’t solve.

He just copied my idea this week of disabling private messages.

You know the BEST idea those fucks ever came up with? “Let’s throw Rob in prison” and “Let’s leave voicemails saying Rob is high. Let’s announce on our webpage that Rob is in active addiction.”

Oh! Okay! Leave everyone voicemails saying I’m using. Put an announcement on your website saying I’m using. But you don’t like being publicly fucking called out on my blog! I see!


Oh my god you diseased fucking fool. You never would have come up with any solutions on your own but my ideas are working and you’re copying them now.

A sane person would have said nope I’m fucking out of here.

Except I got bigger balls than that.

So fucking what if I’m a fag with aids or crazy. Nobody cares except for a couple of assholes on Stan’s website.

I’m sorry you underestimated a “frail” and crazy faggot with aids and mistook me for a “fucking pussy” who you’d “beat if you ever saw on the street.”

I’ve righted your ship several times, and now I expect you all to do it without me. I’m pissed off and I’m over the way I’ve been treated for the last 10 years. Next time I probably will say “that’s too fucking bad” and nope the fuck out.

If the group hasn’t learned anything by now then it deserves to fail.

A safe place to chat about recovery and make friends.

Holy shit, defamatory voicemails aren’t enough, there’s a full page announcement on  [stan's website] accusing me of being “in active addiction.”

Whatever the fuck that means.

Right under the NA logo and everything. Talk about the anonymity fail of the century.

Tip for those not “in the program” — “in active addiction” pretty much means whatever a twelve step nazi wants to weaponize it for. You could be stone cold sober and work all twelve steps and these people will still find some way to call you a dry drunk or criticize your program or say you don’t get it or you don’t pronounce the words in your magical sobriety prayer spell correctly.

There’s no winning, nothings ever good enough for them.

I have my own goals and bottom line behaviors and they’re simply none of Stan’s business. I don’t see fit to announce them on the internet for myself and I don’t care to have Stan announce them on the Internet on my behalf.

There’s even two sides to his own story!

Remember when Stan described the culture of intimidation and harassment and threats on  [stan's website]  nd stated newcomers were going out and using over his site?

And that’s why he closed it?

Remember how he admitted that his trusted servants were involved?

Which he now claims I’m lying about?

The internet remembers, you fucking jackass. :)

You wanted to start having meetings on May 20th. So you started spreading rumors that I’m high on May 20th. Asking my ops and chairpeople to come chair your meetings.

“I’m not going to sit here naming people like someone else would.”


Your voicemails naming me determined that was a lie.

Without further ado, I present you with the two sides of the story coming out of Stan’s mouth:

“A safe place to chat about recovery and make friends.”

And his post from December 2018 where his own description of his own website matches everything I have said about it with surgical precision.

This was a hit job on my reputation.

Tuesday, May 28, 2019


Ten years ago, Janis Marano (then known to me as Janis Dostie) approached me sobbing because her gay son had engaged in unprotected sex and was afraid he might have contracted HIV.

She approached me, as an out and proud gay man with HIV, to unload her sorrows on.

This is why it is important for me to be out about my sexuality and my diagnosis in the rooms.

Well her son was okay.

I guess that must be part of the “dirty I do to the world” that I deserved to die for.

And now she’s a treacherous backstabbing bitch for allowing Phil, scooter, Stan, and Shiloh to sit there and mock me in her chatroom for having aids.

Being out about my sexuality and diagnosis made me someone she saw as available to her when she struggled with that topic.

And it also opened me up to being mocked and abused by other people if she would allow that.

And she did.

Years later, sat there in silence and allowed this to happen under her watch.

Would it still be so fucking funny if your son had contracted HIV? I was there for her when she needed to USE a gay man with HIV to comfort herself.

But then her time of need and despair came and went, she had used me, and no longer needed me.

Worse than that she contacted me on Christmas and told me to drop dead.

Grade-A sociopath.

And again, no amend is ever forthcoming from her.

Oh no, we're "spiritually connected" and she "loves me."

Fuck you, try harder than that. Because we are SO "not okay" it is not even funny.

I warned you that your time was running out to make a decision on your own to make this right.

But pride is a motherfucker, and instead of trying to get right with me your agenda is to destroy me.

Your gay son should be ashamed of you for tolerating violent homophobic threats on your website.

For allowing people to ridicule gay men with AIDS right under your nose.

I want your son to find this and know that I helped you walk through that in your time of need, and then you turned around and treated me the way you did -- and allowed others to treat me the way they have on your website.

Though honestly I have no doubt that he is already deeply ashamed of you.

I mean, just look at you.

You're a monster.

We Print and Press, they copy.

The VPC copied us and turned off private messages. Glad to know I have personally had such a profound effect on how everybody else will run their knock-off carbon copy websites in the future.

Weird move on their part, given there's nobody over there engaged in public let alone private conversation.

$5.00 says their moderator "smartie" suddenly loses interest when there are no newcomers to cybersex.

They scream and bitch and moan about the stuff I do but they want to be just like us and then copy everything we do verbatim after they notice that it fucking works.

Riddle me this: When are you going to steal our radical ideas about not using newcomers as punching bags and trying to be nicer to them? The very thing Shiloh and Betsy screeched "WHO THE FUCK DIED AND MADE YOU GOD" about three years ago when you huffed off and started trying to form your own websites -- all because that seemed like a better idea than being nice to people?

And yet they sit in an empty room scratching their heads wondering what else they've overlooked.

ⓘ CarbonCopy set mode +iwxD CarbonCopy 

<CarbonCopy> nice job enabling deaf mode and stealing our idea and turning off PM

<CarbonCopy> you have no original ideas of your own

<CarbonCopy> whatre you gonna do when you have me "arrested" and dont have anyones ideas to steal anymore?

"It's not stupid, it's advanced!"

Here's the git project page for Woody's "advanced" bot:

"We also have a lot of laughs and the autonewton bot is one way we have some fun."

First of all, there is no "we" in that chatroom.

He's totally lost his fucking mind, he sits in that Slack chatroom alone with his bot, mumbling quietly and rocking in the corner.

And that is punishment enough as far as I am concerned.

At least the losers over on  [stan's website]  have 5 or 6 other bitter clingers to commiserate with and enjoy their common bond over their Dark Lord Satan or their cyber rape fantasies or how much they hate Robert and want to be "in charge of" the group.

At least that's kind of exciting (?) but Woody's chatroom isn't even that much fun.

His "Porsche" pretty much ripped off and copied my "PT Cruiser" lock stock and barrel.

He stole ak47 and "axe" from my animal game so aside from him sending emails under the name "Andy Poo," this doesn't leave a lot of room for ambiguity about whether or not I've identified the correct person here.

He plagiarized the hug macros from my bot:

It's kind of amusing how someone could rag on and insult my bot so badly -- and then try to copy it. Except mine's funnier.

Here are the non-cucked AK-47 and axe commands:

Once he had a prototype up and running, well, obviously, the game plan from there on out was simple -- just DDOS my website out of existence so everyone would come over to his room, right?

Not sure why he supposes a group of addicts would want to be under the protection and care of someone who vowed that he "hopes we all fucking use and hopes we all fucking die and hopes we all burn in fucking hell."

There's a call in Andy's code for def kill(self):

I wish that he would invoke it in real life.